Tuesday

Light

The other day I was on my way to work and as I was driving I just felt this numb sad feeling about life. Very cynical and contemptuous. My brain usually goes into overdrive when those feelings rise and it is times like those that my husband always tells me to stop and phone him, which I often forget.

But back to my story (and I promise it has I positive ending) , I saw a cat that was no more present on planet earth beside the road, a life taken and everybody just remained in their rush to get to work. In all practicality I knew it would be robed of logic to stop and mourn the life of ‘mr.cat’, but the symbolic side of the situation just stood out for me: My life had become a bubble where social networks and celebrity baloney robed me of my natural compassionate heart that had once cared for something like that. Not to say that I wasn’t sad, but I found myself on my cell phone looking at insipid pictures about a drunken party my friends had over the weekend. It felt like my brain was lifeless and I was helping it by filling it with more garbage.

As I drove further on the rainy day… (to add to the ambience it was actually a very cloudy day), the sun suddenly shone bright from behind a dark cloud. It was as if instant light just shone on my heart too. It was like the Lord was saying to me that my eyes should just look to the light and in the midst of a ‘crooked, fallen and corrupted’ world, where death happens, life and light will shine. The best part of it is this Light is in my heart and I sometimes numb it out by just looking at the ‘dead cat…drunken parties and dark clouds’. And the reality of it is that YES looking at these colourless empty things will leave me even emptier but it takes just a shift to look to the light. In fact to just turn to this Light every morning and knowing that we are so dependent on this Light to see the life in a fallen world.


2corin 4:6 For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts

Wednesday

could it be

As we wander through the years
We're told to listen to a voice
We can't here with our ears

They say to live by something
That you can't see with your eyes
Is there really any purpose
To this foolish exercise?

Could it be, You make Your presence known
So often by Your absence?
Could it be that questions tell us more
Than answers ever do?

Could it be that You would really rather die
Than live without us?
Could it be the only answer that means anything
Is You?

In our words and in our silence
In our pride and in our shame
To the genius and the scholar
To the foolish and insane

To the ones who care to seek You
To the ones who never will
You are the only answer even still

Could it be, You make Your presence known
So often by Your absence?
Could it be that questions tell us more
Than answers ever do?

Could it be that You would really rather die
Than live without us?
Could it be the only answer that means anything
Is You?

It's a question you can't answer
An answer you cannot express
That the gentle Man of Sorrow
Is the source of happiness

You'll never solve the mystery
Of this magnetic man
For you must believe to understand

Could it be, You make Your presence known
So often by Your absence?
Could it be that questions tell us more
Than answers ever do?

Could it be that You would really rather die
Than live without us?
song by michael card



Thursday

Change

It has been a while since my last post. I have to say being married is the best thing that ever happened to me. The Lord was so good to me for sending me a husband that just unconditionally loves me. When I look at him I think that is how God must be with us sometimes. Often I think to myself I have to better my lifestyle and regime. I always struggle with doing my own thing and not turning to God when I face a problem, I guess it is a practice. But the Lord just showed me these last past weeks that we should just flood ourselves with him and he takes away all these fleshly desires.

It is like being in a relationship. The time you spend with that person inspires you to change. If you were to spend just 5 fake minutes a day with a person that you were in a relationship, what change will that bring. But the true intimate love that develops in time is the organic transformation. It is almost not something that you try to do. It develops spontaneously and gradually.


One of my biggest inspirations in the Bible is the story of Jacob. I think it is due to the fact that I can just so relate to his way of operating. He was pretty scheming and relied so much on his own way of doing things.. But the best part is that God was patient and enduring with him and allowed his scheming to work out for good and spiritual maturity. It gives me hope in knowing the more I just flood my whole being with him the more my constitution is being changed! 

Tuesday

my Wedding 19 july


Hi my dear friends and readers,

sorry for my lack of communication for a while, these past months have pretty much been a blur of great occurrences. The best one of all, i getting married in just 2 weeks and a few days. I had to share that because i know that each and every one of you have been here through the buffel and mumbling writings that at times might have seemed like cold cases of ADD and preoccupation with unsystematic things.

I intend to give the blog a non-surgical face lift when I am back from honeymoon and officially moved in with my new hubby Thiart. So don’t be to hard on me for a few days of silence. Thank you for each and every email and letter that inspired and motivated me for so many days! Herewith some kickass photos of a wedding …very similar to our setup on 19 JULY.
 Much love Nadja

Thursday

my new Facebook page

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Tuesday

in stillness and simplicity

Colossians 3:15 In stillness and simplicityIn the silence of the heart I seeThe mystery of eternity Who lives in side of me ...In stillness and simplicityI hear the Spirit's silent plea That You, oh Lord, are close to me In stillness and simplicity You're the Word Who must be heard By those who listen quietly. Is the reason we're not still To hear You speak because We don't believe You will In stillness and simplicityI lose myself in finding Thee Oh Lord, You mean so much to me In stillness and simplicity So, seek the One who dwells in you The kingdom that within is true That innermost reality In stillness and simplicity
 

Friday

life

Life is a song we must sing with our days A poem with meaning more than words can say A painting with colors no rainbow can tell A lyric that rhymes either heaven or hell We are living letters that doubt desecrates We're the notes of the song of the chorus of faith God shapes every second of our little lives And minds every minute as the universe waits by
The pain and the longing The joy and the moments of light Are the rhythm and rhyme The free verse of the poem of life.So look in the mirror and pray for the grace To tear off the mask, see the art of your face Open your ear lids to hear the sweet song Of each moment that passes and pray to prolong Your time in the ball of the dance of your days Your canvas of colors of moments ablaze With all that is holy With the joy and the strife With the rhythm and rhyme of the poem of your life